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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 01:54

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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This is soul school!.

Have you ever been forced to dress like a girl?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was 9 years of age.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My life is so biszare .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I said to her

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Summer here, the one who debunks atheism. Isn’t it funny how atheists always say they prefer a “no-nonsense, evidence-based approach” to understanding the world, but when I bring up logical arguments for theism, they suddenly clam up?

I don,t even have a pension.

So, i spoilt her more .

Put me off passion for life!!

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

What did i know ?

Have you ever had a scary dream about a loved one or friend soon after their death?

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was scared of men, in general

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But, we were locked up after school.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Ive learnt so much.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I have no regrets .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

So whats the point in blame.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She married twice! .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

(And it was in our own minds.)

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I will be 64.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We were not on the streets..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

We all went to grammer schools

When she asked me how she looked .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She loved him until the end.

And i lived it daily.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He resisted the act ,that day.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She found it foreign!.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Would this be the day?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I couldn’t, believe it.

She was in good health!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But it wasn’t much.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Who then, do I blame.?

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

As i do to all so called friends.?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im still living with it.

I was very sick at this time too.

All the time i was locked up.

It was going to be , some day.

Comes on , in middle age.

I was seconnd youngest,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I could never make a relationship work though!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My family never makes their pension either.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She wouldn,t have been !

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But ive been too sick for many years..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Especially a lifetime of it.

One cannot live in the past .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I think the readers, may guess!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He knew the spot.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I waited trembling.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I write beautiful poetry .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.